If It's True, I'd Want to Know

Part memoir, part detective story, a stunning account of betrayal in the vein of Belle Burden's Strangers, Maggie Smith's You Could Make This Place Beautiful, and Jen Hatmaker's Awake

It’s the middle of the pandemic and Patricia McCormick's husband hasn’t left her side in months. After a long, eventful marriage, she feels closer to him than ever. Oh, it’s you, she thinks. You’re the man I fell in love with.

Then she receives an ominous text message hinting at a secret that upends her world. More texts and a barrage of mysterious phone calls follow, leading McCormick on a devastating investigation into the man she loved and thought she knew. If It's True, I'd Want to Know is for anyone who’s ever wondered if they really know their partner. It’s a riveting story – harrowing in its depiction of McCormick's pain and compulsively readable as she delves into the darkest questions about her marriage.

Eventually, she sees that the real question is: Who am I and Who am I going to be now? Along the way, McCormick examines the narrative imposed on many women, how the long half-life of trauma can haunt a life and how a woman’s trust can be used against her. Most of all, she shows how, in the wake of almost unbelievable betrayal, it is possible to write a new story of empowerment and joy.

Threaded through with a reporter’s determination for uncovering messy truths, this beautifully written memoir is an intimate account of heartbreak and an inspiring story of a woman who emerges more enlightened and alive than ever.